I think it’s cool getting to know someone. I mean really getting to know them. You talk to them for so long that you begin to notice little quirks about them.. Whether it’d be how they can’t resist dancing to certain songs, how they hide their face when they laugh, how they bite the insides of their cheeks when they’re bored, or even how they can’t sit still for more than five minutes. I mean after talking to them for so long you also begin to notice little quirks about how they speak or even how they text. You realize how they pronounce certain words a bit differently than you do or how their smiley goes (: this way rather than :) that. It’s the little quirks like this about people that fascinate me. I like to appreciate the little things I guess :P
Going through old videos never fails to get me feeling all nostalgic. As content as I am with life right now, I still miss how things used to be. The gut wrenching laughs, the conversations, the overall lack of dullness. There used to be a time where I’d go weeks without having a bad day, now days are neither good nor bad. They’re just days.. days with no risks of disappointment or elation. Eh.. idk.
Tonight’s episode of How I Met Your Mother pretty much sums up how I’ve been feeling for the past few months. It really struck a nerve..
"Look around Ted, you’re all alone…"
I miss you. That is all.
We’ve known each other for so long and you can honestly say that the thought of there ever being an "us" has never crossed your mind? Not even the slightest bit? I’m sorry, but that’s a bunch of bullshit. I don’t know why this bothers me so much. Oh well..
I’ve lived a life of selflessness for so long.. A bit of selfishness might actually help.
I always wonder what will happen when I finally run into you. We used to be so close, inseparable in fact. For as long as I can remember, back in middle school, not a day would go by without hearing from you. We had our ups and downs, and downs and downs, but no matter what happened we never gave up on each other. We were kids then.. The innocence faded and our friendship slowly disappeared. I gave up on you. Cut all ties. Literally one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. Took me forever to get over you, but I did. Occasionally, like tonight, thoughts about you still run through my mind. I wonder if you still make that puckered up sour face whenever you tease somebody, or how that little bear I gave you on Valentines Day in 7th grade is holding up or if you ever figured out how to help a guy put on a tie or even if lip syncing to “You’re Beautiful” by James Blunt can still put a smile on your face? Regardless of how “poisonous” you were to my life, you still were a significant part of it. I know just cutting all ties without saying anything was a dick move, but it was needed at the time. I hope you understand, and I hope someday we can be friends again.
To be honest, it’s not any of you, it’s me. This is to everyone I’ve been shying away from the past couple of weeks, to all the unreplied messages on my facebook and tumblr, to the people I haven’t even bothered to make any contact with.. I’m just trying to figure myself out. I hope you understand that I don’t mean to ignore you all, I just.. I need this alone time. I truly appreciate everything everyone’s been saying and I’m glad to have people like you all in my life, so please don’t take this silence the wrong way. I miss you all, and Happy Holidays. Love, Me.
Everyone’s moving on in their lives. While I’m here actually regressing. No joke. Instead of my life being put “on pause” I feel as if I’m actually taking steps back. I mean is that even possible? I’ve lost all motivation to do anything and I just want to stay in bed all day. I’m slacking off in school and I’ve been avoiding all my friends. I spend all my time trying to encourage myself to do something about it, but I literally feel like my heart’s given up.
I’m in I’ve been in such a horrible funk and I have no idea how to get out of it.
You have things on your mind that you want to let out, I have things on my mind that I want to let out. You’re a stranger, I’m a stranger. We have no knowledge of each other’s past or any general idea of what kind of person we are. Let’s get together, and go wild.. No strings attached. What harm could that do? Just two people getting things off their chests without judgement, then never having contact with each another ever again. One night to let everything you have to say out with no judgement. Basically an emotional one night stand. What do you say?
I mean I don’t mind listening to all the unimportant things you have to say. I just think it’d be nice if that went both ways.
To all of you who have found and are with their soulmate, I really do hope you know how lucky you are.